Anyways, the whole time I was in the hospital I was told you do not want Magnesium Sulfate, it's horrible!!! The nurse that knew how I felt about taking this, comes in and says "I hate to tell you this but the Dr. wants us to give you Mag". What else was I supposed to do...ok, I say. By this time Suz was there which was nice because she knew what it was like. HA, everything that I had ever heard about it was true. The nurse put it in my IV and it started to burn. Over the next hour or so, it started to feel like my insides were on fire!!!! I am not kidding, it hurt! The only positive thing about it was that it can calm you down. I totally needed that! Earlier that day I was given something that made my heart race, made me shake and my face itch. I was also given another steroid shot. By this point the steroid shot was no problem. I had been poked so many times.
A lady from the NICU came and talked to us about what was going to happen with the babies once they were born! I felt completely calm about them and felt like they were going to get very good care. It was all just happening so fast!! I got so many texts and phone calls. I knew that the three of us were being prayed for by so many, some people I didn't even know.
The anesthesiologist came and talked to me about all that was going to happen. WOW, this was the part I was dreading all day. Let me tell you I had the absolute best anesthesiologist in the world!!!!! Everyone really liked him.
It felt like time was going so fast and slow at the same time...I don't know how to even describe it. Visitors were coming in and out, I don't even remember who all was there. Nurses keep coming in prepping me for surgery. Like I had said earlier I had never been in the hospital as a patient before. The thought of surgery was pretty scary much less the thought of being awake through the whole thing.
While we were waiting for my OR to be ready, they had to let another lady go before me. Finally they came in to get me...I said goodbyes to my parents, and Suz. Everyone else was in the waiting room. They were telling me on the way that Chris would have to wait outside till I got my spinal and epidural. I was wheeled in and got up on the operating table. I was feeling pretty calm at this point. My anesthesiologist kept talking to me the whole time...he was such a blessing. As I was getting my spinal I was aware the people in the room were just talking and acting like this was no big deal. Of course they do this everyday, it was me that didn't. I was all hunched over and then a nurse comes in and asks, "how are you going to pay for this?" I sit there stunned at this question, thinking, wow what a weird time for them to ask that. I say somewhat drugged " my purse is in my room or my husband is outside" They laugh and say no she was asking because we are all ordering dinner. I remember thinking, wow, why are they talking about ordering dinner when I'm about to have babies.
At this point I am laying on the table and they are starting the pin poke test to make sure I can't feel anything. I start to feel like I am going to be sick. He said I am giving you something for that. In about five minutes I started feeling better. I ask if Chris can come in who had been waiting in the hallway. Who I found out later was doing this...wasting time taking pictures. He told me later that he was so worried about me while he was out there.
He comes in and we have about three minutes to talk. They tell me that I should not be alarmed if the babies do not come out crying, that's normal. They would at least show me the baby and then take them to be looked over. Looking back on it now I believe I felt so removed from the whole thing. Like I was watching someone else. I couldn't fathom that I was going to be a mommy.
Dr. Cornwell comes in and tells Chris that she does not care if he takes pictures. Which was really nice of her. There were so many people crammed into that room waiting on Kinley and Madelyn.
NICU nurses who we came to LOVE standing waiting by Madelyn's bed!!
It all happened so fast. They pulled out baby A (Kinley) and said it's a Girl, and she is peeing all over me. I heard her cry. They very briefly showed her to me and took her to my right side. I could sort of see her but not well. In two minutes they pulled out baby B (Madelyn) and said it's a girl, and she is peeing on me too. Such a look into the future, I swear they pee on the doctor every time we go now.
While they are pulling out Madelyn they are cleaning Kinley off. They brought her over to me and let me "hold" her!!
I'm still not sure what to think at this point. I just looked at her thinking wow, this just came out of me. After a little while they took her away.
Chris comes over and says that Madelyn is having to go on a cpap. They had told me all this and that it would not be strange for a 33 weeker. Because she was needing more help Chris was not allowed to take as many pictures of her.
Sweet little Madelyn!
They did wheel her by me but I could not see her well because of all the tubes. Chris asked me if I wanted him to stay or go with them. I wanted him to go with them. They finished up with me and wheeled me back to my room. I did it! I was not pregnant anymore. For the first time in almost eight months they were not with me, a very strange feeling! I didn't get to see them until the next day! You can read about my first visit here!
While writing this I didn't realize how emotional I would get. Looking back at pictures I can see how far they have come!!! Thanks for reading! I know it took me a while but I am so glad I finally sat down and wrote it!